There’s a part of me that is in charge of my story. My Story, if you know what I mean.
The story that already knows how it’s going to turn out. It’s the Devil I know.
But Hey, at least I know it realllly well.
For example a part of me believes that I can’t have or own my own home. I’m talking an unexamined belief. As if it’s fact. On a daily basis it’s basically hidden to myself.
A part of me really doesn’t want to explore my possibilities or grow into a larger view of reality, success and magic. Something bad might happen. It’s best to stay right here and stay safe. That’s how the voice goes.
There’s an illusion of control when that story gets repeated. I actually don’t like that story, but a part of me will keep choosing it over changing it. I’ll even sabotage or avoid the very thing that might lead me to owning a home some day.
why ?
Seriously. Why ?
Well if that part of me is anything like that part of you,
…it doesn’t want to take the risk.
To risk being wrong. I’ve rehearsed that belief for a long time…
Who would I be without my Story ?
If you’re coming on the Personal Mythology Quest*, you’re going to get a chance to look at your foundational Story and acknowledge that it exists. And then in a powerful, supported and thorough manner, you will make a choice to take the steps to rewrite it and change the nature of how you experience life. Perhaps from a place of unknown limits to a place of freedoms and choice that you can’t imagine.
How does that sound ?
I’m looking forward to the magic.
If you’re not coming to the weekend, tell me below what your limiting story is and how you have turned it around or not, I’d love to know !
*Registration Deadline Monday April 22nd
Oh Mark!!! Your speaking directly to me! I can’t make this event, but oh how I wish I could… It’s as though you were spying on me and know exactly how I feel and what I am going through. Last night was a doozey! Anyways, your work is amazing, inspiring and sooooo important. Thank you for sharing your gifts with the world 🙂
The story I keep telling myself: Still sorting out all the pieces, but it goes something like this – the vulnerable parts of myself that don’t know how to protect themselves well, will be victimized by the vulnerable parts of others that choose to hide behind taking advantage of those vulnerable parts I have. This will be an unconscious dance. In fact the part of me that is hypervigilant to these shadow aspects in others (having been hurt so much before) and sees through others shadowy (and potentially harmful to my vulnerable parts) defended, projecting parts, will in fact trigger that reaction in others: a mad cycle – In the process of trying to turn this cycle inside out and not sacrifice one part of me for the other: my vision or my boundaries. Hope that makes some kind of sense. Would truly love to attend but finances prevent
Well, for me there is something around success. My family is happy and healthy and I value that a great deal so, on that front a deep success is occurring. We have friends, and family that love us to and a growing sense of community with lots of great folks in our local area (thanks Mark for your contributions to that through the Art of Mentoring and related efforts). So another check mark there.
In terms of money things can be a little different at times… we are getting by but I would describe it as ‘just’. That can have problems in terms of contributing to stresses and even health concerns…
The story I have often told myself is that I would rather be poor and happy (like a red fox or other natural creature) and kind, generous – working to make the world a better place than focusing on the narrower needs of myself or even just my family. In general that is true but I have been realizing for a few years that a new balance is needed… for the sake of myself, my family and also to be able to contribute more effectively to the wider world – the leverage point needs to shift a little higher. Not sure that it has turned around yet but I’ll keep plugging away.
Great question – Thanks!
Craig
just caught the mirror caption on the second read-through… =*)
That’s definitely the trick, isn’t it… changing the story, or even opening it for examination, is daunting enough. Then there’s the process of discerning, from among limitless possibilities, what you would do.
I am reminded of the 4 Agreements. There is a core story that is directing what we (you) think is reality and what we think we are allowed to have/experience. Hang in there, you are doing the good work within and without – we are walking with you.
K
Thank you Kemper ! This small post of transparency is my way of saying, “I’m in this too.” And i’m not only hanging, but swinging from branch to branch, : )
in fact I found some neat parts of the tree I haven’t been in for a long time, killer heirloom fruit there…
M
Mark,
my story is one that I actually just borrowed from another story – Lord of the Rings. Maybe I was too lazy to make up my own story, or maybe I haven’t reached that part of the cycle yet?
Anyway, I had Aragorn as a strong role model – governing who I wanted to – and would allow myself to be. With all his great parts, that also meant living in exile in fear of my own ancestral path – afraid to step out and take my place in this world.
With thanks and in respect for sharing your thoughts on this,
F